…25 january 2008, a day filled wif sorrow. happiness ends wen da person i tot i hate n whom i tot is da worst passed away. still cant believe he left me here wif ma mum. da 1 hu hv been supportin da family wif money and food. he supports me thru all ma lyf but he had neva show dat he’s proud of me. hard to let go but i have to. i hv to feel hapy for him cos he’s hapy der and even i jus knew dat he’s proud of me, i appreciate him and i’ll pray for him da bez. i’m missin him.. alot…
Waited for dem to cum home on 12 jan 2008 from haj. was really excited and hapy dat dey’re back home safely. i’m still not satisfied. i haven’t had much conversation wif him for all dis years. wen i’m beginnin to have dat between me and him, he’s gone. wishin he’d be here again to hear ma cries and ma mum’s. i miss him. i wish i cud c his face again..
it was so sudden and i’m not redy to lose any1 especially him. he’s too tired and he really wana rest. i pray he’s in a better place. his face is still wanderin in ma mind and i’ll neva forget dat.
da las tym i get to say i luv him was b4 he went to haj. asked him for forgiveness.. hugged him.. kiss his hand.. and he went off for haj.. da very 1st tym he kol me ‘anakku sayang’ means ‘ma dear daughter’ was on da fon wen he’s at haj.. he shows his concern thru da fon.. if oni i cud hear dat 1 last tym.. i miss him… god, i really mis him.. to tink of it again.. he really concern abt me oni he doesn’t show it..
